sur3fir3
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well here I am going to be hitting 34 this year. I ruined the beginning of my life by associating with the wrong people, dating the wrong girls, abandoning my real family. Now I have one family member that still cares, but she will be gone soon. I have tried to find women who are my type, but I always end up getting trampled.
So here I am no real dating in the past 4-5 years, no real girlfriends or anything since I became disabled. I was getting used to being completely alone, and it was fine. this was until I met this beautiful girl who has three beautiful kids, I just don't know what to do.
I've told her about my past and I'm pretty sure she thinks I probably lied, because some of the things I did were pretty out there, but I am always upfront about myself before real feelings become involved.
Its been about a month, and everything was going well until last week, she hasn't answered my texts or anything (only messaged 1 time and called 1 time) I figured if she wants to talk she will contact me.
I am looking for some advice from the older crowd that I know is on here. Would you still look for that companion? or just give up on love altogether? I am really at a loss, because in the past month she has shown me everything I was missing, but now its like its all been ripped away yet again. I have some other women interested in me, but I am not interested in them. I really don't know what to do.
In my first and only marriage I "settled" for less than what I wanted so I know that doesn't work, but it seems that at my age most the women that are left either have issues 30 pages long, are addicts, or what have you. I have been drug free for over 10 years now, and the last thing I need is another person dragging me down that road again.
So please any advice from someone who is in this situation, or has been down the same road please help me out here, I am really trying to not get down over all this, but when I look at my life and realize that I have no one I get just a little depressed.
I know this isnt a social networking site or a let me help you site, but you guys are more my friends than most people i know IRL. Thanks for any advice positive or negative.
So here I am no real dating in the past 4-5 years, no real girlfriends or anything since I became disabled. I was getting used to being completely alone, and it was fine. this was until I met this beautiful girl who has three beautiful kids, I just don't know what to do.
I've told her about my past and I'm pretty sure she thinks I probably lied, because some of the things I did were pretty out there, but I am always upfront about myself before real feelings become involved.
Its been about a month, and everything was going well until last week, she hasn't answered my texts or anything (only messaged 1 time and called 1 time) I figured if she wants to talk she will contact me.
I am looking for some advice from the older crowd that I know is on here. Would you still look for that companion? or just give up on love altogether? I am really at a loss, because in the past month she has shown me everything I was missing, but now its like its all been ripped away yet again. I have some other women interested in me, but I am not interested in them. I really don't know what to do.
In my first and only marriage I "settled" for less than what I wanted so I know that doesn't work, but it seems that at my age most the women that are left either have issues 30 pages long, are addicts, or what have you. I have been drug free for over 10 years now, and the last thing I need is another person dragging me down that road again.
So please any advice from someone who is in this situation, or has been down the same road please help me out here, I am really trying to not get down over all this, but when I look at my life and realize that I have no one I get just a little depressed.
I know this isnt a social networking site or a let me help you site, but you guys are more my friends than most people i know IRL. Thanks for any advice positive or negative.