It is not her death that I am worried about. I have already accepted that she is going to die. It is just watching her suffer everyday until that point is what really hurts me the most. I do not like watching people, or things, suffer. BTW, I saw her again today. She was alert and actually talking, but they had to take her food IV out, because it was causing too much pain, and her body can't handle it. My two brothers and I sat with her for almost 5 hours today, and talked with her. Brought up some good times back when she was taking care of us. I think that she really enjoyed our company. She wants to get out of the hospital as soon as possible. My mom has already told her what is going on, and my grandmother has accepted that she is going to pass away soon, but does not want to be in the hospital when she does. Unfortunatly, she cannot be discharged until tuesday, because we have to get the equipment here first... It has been a very long day, and I need to sleep. I really appreciate you guys being here to "listen". I missed my best friend's birthday party today, because I wanted to spend some more time with her. She has been a very special part of my life, and will continue to be.
very sorry to hear that....
