To the original poster, I hope you can see that you are not alone in your thoughts and way of thinking. We all deal with things on a daily basis but with work, spiritual healing, possibly meds, and lifestyle changes, we can be better and do better. And @cbaker65, I’m on the same path as you bud...
This hobby is full of kind, understanding people who are here to help. And here’s a shocker, we all have our issues duds. Mental health is a real thing but you are part of a nitro community that cares about not just your rc cars, but well-being. Keep your head up bro and congrats on being on...